I must say sitting at home alone gets very lonely and very boring at times. Even when Nathan is home he is doing homework, so that still leaves me to be pretty much alone. It is times like tonight that I really get anxious for the baby to come. I can't wait to spend what was once my alone time now with the baby. I can't wait to love them, read to them, and talk to them. It will be nice to share what is going on through my head with someone and since Nate is super busy, the baby will be a great alternative.
However, I still have awhile until the little one gets here, so in the meantime I need to find something else to do with my time. I have considered getting another job, but since I am already halfway through my pregnancy that makes me working a lot, maybe to much. I sometimes search for more craft ideas, but then getting the energy to go and buy the proper materials is sometimes too much of a hassle. I have been shopping for baby clothes now that we know the sex, but I don't want to buy everything now when I still have 20 weeks to go. I sometimes bake, sometimes clean, sometimes nap and sometimes just stick to watching SVU.
I am not a person that likes to sit around, I enjoy keeping busy. I just wish Nathan was not quite as busy so we could spend some more time together. I feel like there is no happy medium between his schedule and mine. I know I shouldn't complain because in the end, Nathan having his engineering degree will be very beneficial to him and our family. So, I guess if he is working on getting his degree then I need to work hard to stay positive for the baby's sake. I like the quote "all good things come to those who wait". If this is true, these lonely nights here and there will all be worth it in the end.
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Monday, October 28, 2013
;-) love him!!
The amount of love I have for Nathan is indescribable. I love him more than any post could begin to say. He means the world to me. Knowing that very soon it is no longer going to be us but our family just adds to the extensive amounts of love I have for this man!!
Why????
Why am I so addicted to Keeping up with the Kardashians? I find myself watching episode after episode all day long, sometimes I have already seen the episode, but it doesn't matter I will watch it again.
Why do I go and look at crafts, fall in love with them, and then refuse to buy them? Instead of just bringing them home with me I insist on buying the materials and making whatever it is by myself.
Why do I NEVER shut the lid on shampoo and conditioner bottle? I mean how easy is it to just shut the cap rather then leave it open for water to get in it.
Why can't I function if I know that the carpet doesn't show lines or if the pillows are not on the right spot on the couch? No lines and messed up pillows does not mean that anything is dirty.
Why do I drink Mountain Dew sometimes before bed when I know I won't be able to get to sleep. It would be so much easier if I just got a glass of water, not to mention a better choice.
Why do I go to bed with wet hair when I know tomorrow it is going to make for some serious frustration trying to tame it. Taking five minutes at night to dry it would make for such an easier morning.
Why is it that every time I go to the movies I freeze? All I need to do is bring a jacket and problem solved.
Why can't I run without listening to music? For six years during school in Track and Cross County I ran all the time and never had music.
Why do I worry so much about what people think of me? I am who I am, and what people think of me should be my last thing I worry about, but somehow it still seems to bother me.
Why should some people have the luxury of having clear skin while others don't? I mean I try so hard to keep my face clean but, it never fails more and more breakouts.
Why do I curse without thinking twice about it when I am with friends and Nathan, but when I am around my family those words never happen to come out even though I am still being myself. I am 24 years old, it is not like I will get in trouble. I think it is just out of respect that they are my parents.
Why do I cut my hair when I know I want it to grow long? Every time I grow my hair out I turn around and chop it off. It doesn't make sense.
Why do fingerprints on anything drive me insane? But, I guess if there were not fingerprints then I wouldn't have the relationship with Windex that I do.
Why do I get sad when Nathan leaves for the day, when I know he is coming back later? I seriously should just be happy that he isn't leaving for months.
Why can't I lay down on the couch without grabbing a blanket? I might not even be cold, but having that blanket just comforts me.
Why is it that when I get on a computer I find myself logging onto Facebook without even realizing I am doing it? Half the time I long on to log right off and onto something else. Just a bad habit.
Shopping
As a child, I used to go shopping almost every Saturday with my family. For some reason when you live in a house full of girls, shopping becomes the hobby. As I began to grow up, I realized the value of a dollar, so it slowly changed my shopping habits. Rather than me waiting to get paid so I could buy more clothes, or another pair of shoes, I decided to save my money.
One of the main reasons why I started really saving my money was that I was now in a long distance relationship. If I wanted to see Nathan, I was going to have to fly to get there. I couldn't rely on my family to hand out 600 dollars, sometimes more sometimes less, every time I needed a plain ticket to fly to Montana. I realized that buying another pair of shoes was no longer on my priority list.
Anyways, once Nathan and I got married and were living together it was nice to go shopping and buy things for myself again. It took a little adjustment to the idea that it was okay to go to the mall and buy things that I enjoyed. In a way it was kind of like rewarding ourselves for everything we didn't buy, just so that we could spend sometime with each other every 3-4 months.
Now that Nathan and I found out that we are expecting a baby, the shopping has changed once again. Things are a little more tricky now because we want to save up as much money as possible in preparation for the little one. However we still want to go shopping and buy things for the baby, so that they have everything they need for when they arrive.
I think it is funny how in life your priorities change. How you go from thinking having the cutest shoes and the newest clothes is so important, to realizing those things don't matter at all. I have not even delivered this baby yet, and now everything we buy its for him/her rather than ourselves and to be honest I LOVE IT!!
One of the main reasons why I started really saving my money was that I was now in a long distance relationship. If I wanted to see Nathan, I was going to have to fly to get there. I couldn't rely on my family to hand out 600 dollars, sometimes more sometimes less, every time I needed a plain ticket to fly to Montana. I realized that buying another pair of shoes was no longer on my priority list.
Anyways, once Nathan and I got married and were living together it was nice to go shopping and buy things for myself again. It took a little adjustment to the idea that it was okay to go to the mall and buy things that I enjoyed. In a way it was kind of like rewarding ourselves for everything we didn't buy, just so that we could spend sometime with each other every 3-4 months.
Now that Nathan and I found out that we are expecting a baby, the shopping has changed once again. Things are a little more tricky now because we want to save up as much money as possible in preparation for the little one. However we still want to go shopping and buy things for the baby, so that they have everything they need for when they arrive.
I think it is funny how in life your priorities change. How you go from thinking having the cutest shoes and the newest clothes is so important, to realizing those things don't matter at all. I have not even delivered this baby yet, and now everything we buy its for him/her rather than ourselves and to be honest I LOVE IT!!
Saturday, October 26, 2013
"We are the perfect couple, we're just not in the perfect situation."
Distance relationships are not for everyone. I would not recommend it for anyone to be honest. Being in a long distance relationship with Nathan for such a llooonnnggg time was by far one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Day after day of counting down until the next time I got to see him seemed like an eternity. But, no matter how far Nathan and I were apart and how much I missed him, I LOVED HIM MORE.
I started dating Nathan my junior year of high school. Prior to my junior year, I knew Nate from running Track and Cross Country,but it was nothing more than that. Nathan asked me to his Senior Prom and from that point on things changed. Nathan was no longer my team mate but now my boyfriend. Everyone told me to not get to attached because he was going to be leaving for boot camp for the USAF come June. The thing is I couldn't change how I felt about him. I wanted to spend every second with him, it didn't matter that he was leaving. Eventually he left for Texas and I was left spending every second alone rather then with him.
While Nate was in boot camp, I promised to write to him everyday...and I did. He actually still has all the letters I wrote to him. I thought by telling him about my day in a letter it was as if I was actually talking to him. I also hoped that me writing would help him get through day to day. Nathan wrote me three letters and called me twice the entire time he was in Texas, which made things hard but, at the same time when I did receive those couple of letters or the phone calls it made everything worth it.
After he graduated from boot camp he went to tech school in Mississippi. At this point things got a little bit better because I was now able to talk to him on the phone almost every night. I still missed him like crazy. As time passed things got harder and harder because I just wanted to hang out with him, but being so far apart kind of made that impossible.
After Mississippi Nate was in California for a little bit. Once he was there it made things really hard because there was a three hour time difference. It is really hard to talk at night because it was his dinner time when it was my bedtime. It never failed though, he would call and I would be up late. But, it didn't matter because when I was talking to him, it seemed like everything was okay in the world. Just hearing the sound of his voice made me feel better.
Once Nathan finally was stationed in Montana, things became real. He was going to be there for the next four years and I was going to be here, going to school at Cal U. Him being so far away and me going to college was a worry on both of us. We trusted each other a hundred percent but, at the same time college changes people. However it didn't change me. I was still completely devoted to being with Nate. No one could even begin to make me feel the way he did.
The summer before my Sophomore year of college Nathan proposed to me. Needless to say I was shocked because I knew it was going to be awhile before I thought we would be getting married. Nathan still had years to put in and I had three more years of college. But, there was no way I was going to say no. I knew I wanted to be with him forever. I just also knew we were going to have to wait until I was done with school before we could get married. Needless to say those three years seemed like forever.
The three years were rough. It was countdown after countdown. Sleepless night after sleepless night. Tears after tears. I missed him so, so much...but, I LOVED HIM MORE. I knew he had an obligation to the Air Force and I had an obligation to earning my degree. As much as I wanted to be with him, I knew that he wasn't going anywhere and I was not looking for anything else, so together we helped each other get through it, even though we were thousands of miles apart.
The day Nathan and I said "I Do" I had many emotions but, one important one was relief. I no longer had to go another day being away from the one person I wanted to be with for the last five years. We were FINALLY together. We worked hard and it was completely worth it. My grandma used to say "all good things come to those who wait" and she couldn't of been more right.
Nathan and I did what a lot of people could never of done. We trusted each other. We sacrificed for each other. We relied on each other. We supported each other. We encouraged each other. We appreciated each other. We did whatever it took to keep our relationship solid. I would never wish a long distance relationship on anybody, but if I would have to do it again to be able to spend the rest of my life with Nathan, I would in a heartbeat!
People say long distance relationships don't work out, but Nathan and I didn't listen to people, we listened to our hearts and our hearts nailed it!!
I started dating Nathan my junior year of high school. Prior to my junior year, I knew Nate from running Track and Cross Country,but it was nothing more than that. Nathan asked me to his Senior Prom and from that point on things changed. Nathan was no longer my team mate but now my boyfriend. Everyone told me to not get to attached because he was going to be leaving for boot camp for the USAF come June. The thing is I couldn't change how I felt about him. I wanted to spend every second with him, it didn't matter that he was leaving. Eventually he left for Texas and I was left spending every second alone rather then with him.
While Nate was in boot camp, I promised to write to him everyday...and I did. He actually still has all the letters I wrote to him. I thought by telling him about my day in a letter it was as if I was actually talking to him. I also hoped that me writing would help him get through day to day. Nathan wrote me three letters and called me twice the entire time he was in Texas, which made things hard but, at the same time when I did receive those couple of letters or the phone calls it made everything worth it.
After he graduated from boot camp he went to tech school in Mississippi. At this point things got a little bit better because I was now able to talk to him on the phone almost every night. I still missed him like crazy. As time passed things got harder and harder because I just wanted to hang out with him, but being so far apart kind of made that impossible.
After Mississippi Nate was in California for a little bit. Once he was there it made things really hard because there was a three hour time difference. It is really hard to talk at night because it was his dinner time when it was my bedtime. It never failed though, he would call and I would be up late. But, it didn't matter because when I was talking to him, it seemed like everything was okay in the world. Just hearing the sound of his voice made me feel better.
Once Nathan finally was stationed in Montana, things became real. He was going to be there for the next four years and I was going to be here, going to school at Cal U. Him being so far away and me going to college was a worry on both of us. We trusted each other a hundred percent but, at the same time college changes people. However it didn't change me. I was still completely devoted to being with Nate. No one could even begin to make me feel the way he did.
The summer before my Sophomore year of college Nathan proposed to me. Needless to say I was shocked because I knew it was going to be awhile before I thought we would be getting married. Nathan still had years to put in and I had three more years of college. But, there was no way I was going to say no. I knew I wanted to be with him forever. I just also knew we were going to have to wait until I was done with school before we could get married. Needless to say those three years seemed like forever.
The three years were rough. It was countdown after countdown. Sleepless night after sleepless night. Tears after tears. I missed him so, so much...but, I LOVED HIM MORE. I knew he had an obligation to the Air Force and I had an obligation to earning my degree. As much as I wanted to be with him, I knew that he wasn't going anywhere and I was not looking for anything else, so together we helped each other get through it, even though we were thousands of miles apart.
The day Nathan and I said "I Do" I had many emotions but, one important one was relief. I no longer had to go another day being away from the one person I wanted to be with for the last five years. We were FINALLY together. We worked hard and it was completely worth it. My grandma used to say "all good things come to those who wait" and she couldn't of been more right.
Nathan and I did what a lot of people could never of done. We trusted each other. We sacrificed for each other. We relied on each other. We supported each other. We encouraged each other. We appreciated each other. We did whatever it took to keep our relationship solid. I would never wish a long distance relationship on anybody, but if I would have to do it again to be able to spend the rest of my life with Nathan, I would in a heartbeat!
People say long distance relationships don't work out, but Nathan and I didn't listen to people, we listened to our hearts and our hearts nailed it!!
wHaT mAkE mE mE...
- I grew up in a small town.
- Graduated from California University in 2012 with and elementary education degree!!
- I got engaged to my best friend my sophomore year of college.
- I dream of having my own classroom.
- Being the oldest of three sisters is fun.
- I married my best friend in July 2012.
- Heights scare me, but I am in love with roller coasters.
- I enjoy making crafts for the house, gifts and now for the baby:-)
- I want a chocolate lab as soon as we get a house.
- I can't wait for the day we buy our first house, so I can have a lab!!
- Pink is probably my favorite color.
- Baking is becoming a new hobby.
- I clean more than anybody, I am sure of it!!
- Being in love with Nate, is the best feeling in the world.
- Expecting a baby is right behind it!!
- It is fun knowing what we are having, but hard keeping it a secret from the family.
- I am obsessed with Windex and lines in the carpet.
- Nathan and I are the god parents to Kenzi Wrae, my sister's oldest child.
- Saving money is important to me, but hard now that I am expecting!!
- I wan't a tattoo, but I need to wait until the baby comes.
- Basically, loving life!!
Food
Can't eat Oreos without dunking them in milk first.
I like applesauce, but I don't care for apples.
I like oranges, but orange juice is gross.
Broccoli cooked is disgusting, but broccoli raw is amazing.
Carrots cooked are tasty, but carrots raw not so much.
Chicken is my go to meat.
Pretzels are good dipped in cream cheese.
I can't handle spicy food.
I enjoy sweets, but salty foods are just as good.
I could eat cucumbers and Italian dressing everyday.
I LOVE CHEESE!!
My favorite kind of pickles are bread and butter.
Speaking of butter, I love butter on Italian bread.
The smell of onions can be overwhelming.
Any kind of pizza...say no more!!
I love hard boiled eggs and salt.
I love food, but at the same time a lot of food does not excite me.
Who Am I??
I guess I will start by saying I am an extremely lucky person. I have an amazing family, good friends, and the most incredible person in the world as my husband. I have been through rough times, but many people have been through rougher. I have accomplished many things, some people have accomplished more, some less. I have traveled to many places, but there are always more to see. I have made good grades all through school, but they always could of been higher. I have made smart choices, but there have been times that I could of made smarter ones. Basically, what I am trying to say is I am not perfect, but who really is.
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