I can't believe that in less than a month Zoe will be here!! The anticipation of meeting her is driving me crazy! There is not a day that goes by that I don't question what/who she will look like, what her personality will be like, or the type of baby she will be. Nathan and I talk about all the things we want to do with her and all the places we want to take her. We talk about when her and I take the trip down to Texas to see him this summer and how cute she will look in her little bikini!! Just the idea of doing things as a family rather than a couple makes me super anxious.
I love hearing Nathan talk to my belly, or seeing him go into Zoe's room just waiting for the day that we get to bring her home! I know I am soooooo pumped Zoe will be with us soon, but the fact that Nathan is equally excited makes the waiting for her arrival even harder. The other day, Nate said he couldn't wait for the time when I had to go somewhere and he got the opportunity to hang out with just Zoe for the day, just the two of them!! He is going to make a great dad. If I am being honest I am already jealous of the relationship he will have with our daughter because I wasn't as fortunate to have that type of relationship with my dad.
People ask me all the time, am I ready? Well if they mean do we have the car seats in, the diaper bags packed, the babies room done, clothes bought, stalked up on diapers, my hospital bag ready to go, and all the baby gear set up...then I guess we are ready. But, if they mean am I ready for the biggest change of my life...then I would say I don't know. I know I am ready to meet her and love her. I just wonder am I really ready to care for another human being. Not just an human being but our daughter. I worry because I have never done this before, but I worry less when I think of all the other people that have never done it before either.
I look forward to becoming a mommy next month! I look forward to Nathan becoming a daddy. I look forward to spending all my time with her and then some. I look forward to watching her become her own little person day-to-day. I look forward to reading to her. I look forward to going to the zoo and shopping with her. I look forward to having someone to spend time with while Nathan is at school. I look forward to taking her down to campus to meet Nathan for lunch. I look forward to the visits home. I look forward to the walks around the park. I look forward to all the pictures and videos that will be taken. I look forward to what our new life will be like in less than 4 weeks!!!!!
I LOOK FORWARD TO MEETING ZOE GRACE PATTON!!
