Less Than A Month!!!

     I can't believe that in less than a month Zoe will be here!! The anticipation of meeting her is driving me crazy! There is not a day that goes by that I don't question what/who she will look like, what her personality will be like, or the type of baby she will be. Nathan and I talk about all the things we want to do with her and all the places we want to take her. We talk about when her and I take the trip down to Texas to see him this summer and how cute she will look in her little bikini!! Just the idea of doing things as a family rather than a couple makes me super anxious.
     I love hearing Nathan talk to my belly, or seeing him go into Zoe's room just waiting for the day that we get to bring her home! I know I am soooooo pumped Zoe will be with us soon, but the fact that Nathan is equally excited makes the waiting for her arrival even harder. The other day, Nate said he couldn't wait for the time when I had to go somewhere and he got the opportunity to hang out with just Zoe for the day, just the two of them!! He is going to make a great dad. If I am being honest I am already jealous of the relationship he will have with our daughter because I wasn't as fortunate to have that type of relationship with my dad.
     People ask me all the time, am I ready? Well if they mean do we have the car seats in, the diaper bags packed, the babies room done, clothes bought, stalked up on diapers, my hospital bag ready to go, and all the baby gear set up...then I guess we are ready. But, if they mean am I ready for the biggest change of my life...then I would say I don't know. I know I am ready to meet her and love her. I just wonder am I really ready to care for another human being. Not just an human being but our daughter. I worry because I have never done this before, but I worry less when I think of all the other people that have never done it before either.
     I look forward to becoming a mommy next month! I look forward to Nathan becoming a daddy. I look forward to spending all my time with her and then some. I look forward to watching her become her own little person day-to-day. I look forward to reading to her. I look forward to going to the zoo and shopping with her.  I look forward to having someone to spend time with while Nathan is at school. I look forward to taking her down to campus to meet Nathan for lunch. I look forward to the visits home. I look forward to the walks around the park. I look forward to all the pictures and videos that will be taken. I look forward to what our new life will be like in less than 4 weeks!!!!!
     I LOOK FORWARD TO MEETING ZOE GRACE PATTON!!

Who Will You Look Like??

How will you be? 

Will you look like Daddy or me? 

Ten little fingers and ten little toes, 

A wrinkled up forehead and a cute button nose. 

You will be crying with that first cold touch, 

And so will I because I love you so much.
 ~ Wendy Dahlke

Change

     Today I realized that tomorrow might be the last day that both Nathan and I will both be off together before the baby. Since Nathan starts back to school on Monday, his schedule becomes very hectic which doesn't allow him to have a day off. Also since his classes have changed so has his schedule for work. He will be down at PITT for the majority of the day Monday through Thursday, and then work Friday, Saturday and Sunday. While he is busy doing this I will be trying to pick up as many substitute positions as possible before the baby comes, along with getting things ready for the arrival of our new addition to our family!!
     It is kind of sad to think that Nathan and I won't have many more opportunities for the both of us to hang out, but at the same time it is beyond exciting to know we are getting so close to the baby being with us. To be honest, I don't like spending so many evenings by myself, but I understand Nathan has a busy schedule and him going to school to get his engineering degree will only make things better for us in the future. I try to remind myself of how far we have come from not being able to see each other for months at a time to now being married and sharing our home together. I just can't help that I always want to be with him. I can never get enough time with him, he leaves and a part of me always gets a little upset.
     Knowing that very soon when Nathan leaves for work or school I will no longer be by myself is such a good feeling. I am excited to bond with our little one during the day. I am excited to have little surprises for Nate(daddy) when he gets home. I am excited to take the little one down to the campus to go for a walk or have lunch with Nate on his breaks. I am excited to see Nathan work on his homework as the baby is sleeping in the same room. As much as I want Nate to be home with us once the baby is here, we will make the best of it!
     Nathan and my life is about to change very much, very soon. It is still hard to grasp the concept that we are going to be parents. Nathan and my schedule is going to be very busy from here on out, but at the same time being so busy will only make our relationship and our family stronger.
     So now that I think about it, the chance that tomorrow is our last day both being off together before the baby doesn't necessarily mean it's a bad thing. It just means good things are about to change for better!